Party of 1

I'm not sure what to write here.  But i want to try to write once a day; or thereabouts.

It's amazing what a short period of time can do.  I guess it all depends on what happens in those minutes.  I had a great time playing a hilarious and random board game with friends tonight.  Much laughter, and releasing of endorphin.  And then, as always, i had to come home alone--which normally might send me down a spiral but wasn't too bad tonight.  Then, a hour or so later, i got some disappointing semi-crush news (it's complicated...don't ask  =)...suffice it to say that it wasn't terribly disappointing, but rejection--even the closing of a possibility that one wasn't even really hoping for--is, at least, mildly disappointing).  Which got me thinking about my real crush, and how i haven't heard from him.  So i might as well let that go.  And that's where the spiral started.  It's not a deep spiral this time, so that's good.

Also, where did my day go?  I really needed to shower, and didn't get to until past midnight!!  what?

And (back to my first topic), what gives me the right to complain?  There are plenty of others out there--probably hundreds of blogs even--that are in my boat or worse.  I question why i have the right to voice my "bummer" on the interweb.  But it doesn't make my feelings less valid.  I guess that's the point.  This is my blog and what else am i going to write?  Certainly nothing profound--at least not if i'm trying too hard.

Anyway, this is my stream of consciousness tonight.  I guess that's keeping in line with my goal for this blog.  Just be.  So...tonight's "just be" is a pity party.

"Pity party--party of 1."