Dear God

Dear God,

Sometimes I feel like we haven't met yet.  I hope (sometimes beyond all hope) that we will continue to meet in more real ways in the future.  Dare I even say that we are bound to because of how hard my soul keeps searching for You.  I can't wait to meet You in a deeper way, although I don't know what that will look like.

I hope that as I continue to meet You that I will continue to become a more perfect contributor to our relationship.  Not the "Perfect Follower", but one that truly seeks after You.  I do seem to have some spiritual baggage, not in the least the fading of hope of experiencing You, because I just don't know what that means right now.  I know You already know, but I don't really like games.  I really hope that I am comfortable enough with You that I can be honest--mostly comfortable enough with You that I can truly be honest with myself.  I also hope that I will be strong enough to receive constructive criticism and harsh truths with grace.

I'm not very good at promoting myself, but I dare say that I have some good qualities that I bring to the relationship.  You've made me a sensitive soul, or so I've been told.  My spirit stirs within me and seeks to find truth--hopefully Truth.  I like working with people, so maybe I might find more of You in true community and fellowship.  I'm also very analytic (maybe that's how You made me)--usually too much so (that's probably my own doing).  I over-think things but that means a part of me is constantly seeking You.  Although sometimes that method of seeking becomes futile because I'm seeking with the wrong part of me.  I also try to be thoughtful, but sometimes that gets in the way of my heart and my spirit.

I "miss" You (though that's not the right word because You've never left; my understanding is just changing and stretching--and confusing), so please hurry up and slowly reveal more and more to me.

nathan