I can feel my personal theology changing. It's weird. And scary. And good. It's becoming mine, and, for that to happen, it has to change. There's no way around it. It's a little like God is becoming less my parents' friend and more my friend. Do you have a family friend that one day became more than just a "family friend" but your actual friend? That relationship had to change. It's like that with me and God.
So, how exactly is it changing? Well, i don't really want to get into that here. I don't want this to be a soapbox. (And, honestly, i don't want to say anything too controversial here...although, i might have already done so by being openly out, as well as a Christian. Oops, too late =). I also don't want to preach. Nor do i want to invite debate. (I'm not a debater, and do not find that sort of discourse helpful to my process.) However, suffice it to say that i think God is seeking to make the box that i put God in bigger. I am learning (and trying to allow my faith to follow along) that God is Bigger. And not just bigger in the sense of size, but the kind of "bigger" where the bigger God is, the smaller the place God can enter. Maybe like air (for lack of a better metaphor). God is bigger than me. God is bigger than anyone. God is bigger than religion (ooh...that's a touchy one). God is bigger than dogma. God is bigger than relativism. God is bigger than unbelief. God is bigger than what i want and what i seek to control. And yet, in the midst of that "big-ness" God still cares about what i want, about what i feel, about what i need. I'm still trying to wrap my head around that. It's interesting because a big God caring about what i think and a little God caring about what i think are two very different things.
Right now, though, my mantra is "God is bigger..." (ellipses are vital to that statement).
God is bigger...
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